Saturday, August 06, 2005

Humerously Weird Dreams with....Lucidity?

So I lied down for a nap in mom's bed around 4:30 or so...and eventually got to fall asleep.

I was doing some daydreaming previous to falling asleep. I remember as I was falling asleep - as my body was doing that tingly-good-all-over-internal collapse into the dream world and I was saying to myself, oh, I can go straight into a lucid dream from here, like the website told me, so I tried so hard and I remember my whole world going upside down a couple of times, something about holding onto a car's steering wheel, and ah er...some sexy stuff with Shawn...

The next thing I remember is driving chewy around. I had to go park in this car park, and it was waaaaaaaaay dark in this place. I pulled around this one corner and there was a car parked in the middle of the lane - impossible to get around, so I had to back up and try to find another. Well, this car park was already tightly knit and there was hardly any possiblity to get around. I spent forever trying to get my car adjusted, backing up, pulling forward, etc. Funny thing is, I remember I was reaaaaally tired doing this, and I kept nodding off in the dream, so bits of the dream go blank, and eventually, one time I 'woke up' in the dream and my car had somehow gotten past the point of the car parked in the middle of the lane (though it was impossible to pass, so I don't know how I did it - which is what I thought in my dream, too). So, I parked and that was the end of it.

The next part I remember is going to our old house - on Kathy Ct. I pulled up and parked in the court, and apparently the family was just getting out of their car and going into the house. I waited for a few, and then asked the dad if I could look around outside, as it was my old house, etc... He didn't recognize me of course, and then was embarrassed that he hadn't recognized me. :? Anyway, he let me, and all of a sudden now Domino was with me - and we went back by where our garden was. I was shuffling my feet and daydreaming about the past when I remember I started to feel weird in the dream and something I didn't like started to approach me...so I started to walk back and when I got to the sharp hill where the railroad tys are, I started to fall.

I think then I remember trying to move and being restricted, and something was warping the world around me - very sci-fi ish. I was terrified and immediately, my mind turned to "omg aliens!" I remembered then that I was in a dream and didn't have to deal with this. I closed my eyes tight - reeeeally hard and tight so that nothing would open them as the world around me collapsed, and I thought to myself, "wake up, alyson, wake up. Wake up Alyson, Wake up Alyson!" over and over again, and reminded myself that I would be in mom's room, head in one of her pillows, looking towards the wall...but it wasn't working, so I started trying to make my physical self cry out for help. I was screaming, "moooooooooooooom" since I knew she and my brother were in the computer room. It felt like my efforts were muffled by the pillow or something else though I knew I was actually making noise, because I could feel my throat vibrate.

Eventually, I "woke up" and was relieved to see that it had worked. Then, not more than a minute later, shawn brought in a guest I had - Hillary! Hillary that I hadn't seen in...I haven't seen her in forever. She's cut off all contact with me and my friends, and only hangs out with the other group now, I guess. Anyway, she came in and I remember - as I was still lying down - putting my arms around her waist and crying because I was so happy to see her. So, we talked for awhile about this and that, and what's been going on, and the next thing I know it, she's there to perform on this show - and then Alex, Megan's brother was there performing, too.

It was like, a play on this showboat and I was in the boat after it - we were in this sort of theme-park holding cell where you load/unload on the boats. All the actor's actresses got on the other boat and everyone off at the sides had a great time as the boat show went by and they did their little coreographed song and dance. I was like, "Awesome! I really wanted to see this show and I get to see it from a really cool, view!

But alas, the boat I was on had it's own mission and they needed my help, so as we passed my mom and dad and brother who were there at the sidelines, watching the show, I waved goodbye.

The end.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Semi-Lucid once more

So, I remember I was riding around in this old, beat up maroon colored "beast" like Angela's old car. It was a bunch of kids my age, and they were all "cool" kids, like I think those types of kids are. Generally normal kids, they like music, they like the internet, they like partying, some more than others, etc.

We were riding it on this roller coaster though and at times I was watching it happen - with myself in the back right side seat, seemingly squished from all the people in there, looking sad.
I was mostly sad in this dream...well, not sad, but perhaps contemplating. PENSIVE! haha. But more in a "what is the point" sort of way, so it was a downer on me.

Eventually the car got to this underground bunker sort of exhibition thing - where a party was going on. My friends and I got out of the car and went in through the top hatch - like in a submarine. There was this woman there all dressed up in nazi-like regalia, and this was a gallery of art that belonged to the nazi party - at least I think it was the nazi party, if not that, then something exactly like or very similar to it.

I was looking around at the paintings kind of half-heartedly, still feeling down. I remember that my friend from BSU, Griff was there and we had talked earlier, and he was kind of getting drunk, or was already there. I went over to this one wall and stared at this painting up close, leaning on the railing. I rememher it was abstract - full of deep blues and reds, all swished around each other dry-brush style. There were some discernable circular patterns it, but nothing more. It was pretty, but I wasn't acknowledging that too much as I stared at it, just kind of wanted somthing to stare at while I thought to myself.

I remember then that someone came over and because my ass was sticking out with the way I was standing, started rubbing it vigorously in a vertical motion, with both hands, saying something to the effect of, "yeah, you've got a nice ass, so big and juicy." Then, when I was started to turn and tell him to stop, he did, but upon removing his hands on the upward motion of rubbing my ass, kept moving his hands up, then around to the sides of my breasts, and just slightly hit them - as if they were getting them to jiggle. Heheh, and just as they hit them, they said, "BAP!" hahahaha. That made me laugh, slightly, but I finally turned and told the guy to quit it.

Through that whole last paragraph, I remember I started thinking, "I miss shawn...I wish he were here with me..." and when the person hit my breasts, I thought it more.
Anyway, so then we were leaving that submarine place and I said bye to griff and exited through the top hatch, how we all entered.

We drove from there to this house - it had the effect of someoen's house they were renting for school, but it wasn't anyone's in the car. In fact, the car was a lot more empty now.
I started walking up to this house and stripping. Now, I was pretty conscious - more than usual - through this dream, so at this point I'm honestly laughing to myself, thinking, now what in the world is going to happen next? I'm out in broad daylight in the middle of nowhere walking up the sidewalk to this house and stripping! Now, my dream self - though still mostly apathetic - was getting a little nervous, but I wanted to see where the hell this was going. What was I doing? What was next in my dream's plot? So, I made my dream self continue her stripping and walking up to the door - until she opened it and saw the house was full of college-age boys (of course, none recognizeable faces).

Now, I think at this point, I was consciously controlling my dream-self, but I lost control and the dream-self took back over. Now, I think what happenned was once I got inside the house and a couple of the boys noticed me (I had just stepped inside the door, not maybe a foot was "inside") I was waiting for the next thing to happen in my dream. I wasn't really thinking that I could make anything happen - more that I just wanted to keep myself walking into the house nekkid. Thus, my dream self took over again to continue the plot, got scared, and walked back out of the house, thinking "oh great, they're probably going to come after me and rape me now." (hahaha). Then, I woke up. :(